My Second Saturn Return: This Time I’m Ready
Unbeknownst to me, I am heading into my second Saturn return.
You would think someone as in tune as I am with astrology, Human Design, and my own inner world would have had this marked on the calendar for a few years. But it took me by surprise. I’m not even sure when I realized I was sliding into it.
My guess is that over the last few months, while talking with my friend Rochelle about all things astrology, it came up. She did a current chart reading for me about 30 days ago, and I know something has been shifting. My pull back to my writing has gotten stronger. The part of me that can no longer leave space open for people who want to dip in and out of my life is done and I closed that door completely. The part of me that is tired of being quiet, tired of not fully being myself, is getting louder, telling me to speak my mind.
So much so that I’ve had a stomachache on and off for the last month. That’s not normal for me. I’m not under any unusual stress… except for the voice telling me to move forward and be bold. To write the MF book.
And when I finally started putting it all together, I realized:
My second Saturn return is coming.
Within months.
No surprise the volume has been turned up.
A Simple Explanation of a Saturn Return
A Saturn return is when Saturn comes back to the same place it was when you were born. It happens first in your late twenties and again around age 57–60. Saturn represents responsibility, maturity, boundaries, and self-respect. And Saturn Returns get a bad rap because they can make life bumpy. If you ignore what’s coming up during a Saturn return, the lessons tend to get louder.
Everyone's Saturn placement is different.
The sign and house tell the story.
If you don’t know yours, you can look it up for free here:
https://horoscopes.astro-seek.com/
Mine is Saturn in Aries in the 8th House.
Aries Saturn is about self-authority, courage, and not abandoning myself.
8th House is about boundaries, emotional depth, transformation, and shared resources.
All of this makes perfect sense for me.
“Shared resources” has me curious… but I’m not panicking. We can’t control how these themes show up, but we can prepare. For me, that means getting back into our budget spreadsheet and maybe having a conversation with my husband about what we’re building together.
The Part I Struggle With
Here’s the truth:
I want to write about all of this, but sometimes I freeze.
It’s hard to explain something I don’t fully understand myself. But I’m writing anyway because it feels important for people to at least know this cycle exists. These shifts can catch you off guard. You can be reeling and wondering what is going on.
Knowing what this is and how it can show up gives me a chance to notice, to stay grounded, and to move through it with more ease.
Looking Back at My First Saturn Return
During my first Saturn return, I didn’t know anything about myself. I didn’t know the Sun, Moon, and planets affected us. Would I have done something differently if I knew? I’d like to hope so, but honestly, probably not.
I was in my first marriage with a toddler. There was no room for self-reflection. I was giving too much of myself every day. Overdoing and overgiving, letting my boundaries get run over at every turn. I had no idea what lessons I was supposed to learn.
But I did start to realize the life I was living wasn’t the one I wanted.
I wanted stability. I wanted respect. I needed to stop abandoning myself.
By the end of that Saturn return, I was divorced, single parenting, and had bought my own house.
My boundaries were no longer optional; they were non-negotiable.
What you accept will continue.
Knowing My Second Saturn Return Is Coming
This time, I am walking in prepared and with my eyes wide open.
Rochelle did a Saturn return reading for me. She looked at the planets, the house, and what themes might show up. She asked me to consider what I didn’t learn the first time, because if we didn’t learn it then, we may revisit it now.
My boundaries are clear now.
I don’t typically overgive or self-abandon.
But I do know my voice isn’t as loud as it could be. I still freeze to avoid conflict.
And the book I’ve been trying to write for years? I’ve put it off out of fear:
Fear of offending others, fear of not being good enough, fear that no one will care.
That is self-abandonment 101.
I want to use this return to grow into the fullest version of myself—unafraid, unfiltered, and unwilling to shrink anymore.
And I can feel the energy building already. Saturn doesn’t wait for the exact date. The pressure arrives early.
How I’m Equipped This Time
The scales are tipped in my favor now. I’m not in the dark.
I’ve learned. I’ve grown. I understand myself more clearly, as a person, a friend, a parent, a spouse, and a grandmother.
My tools:
Astrology: gives language to my patterns
Human Design: shows where I self-abandon
Gene Keys: reveals the shadows I’ve been transforming
Rochelle: a grounding mirror https://tinyurl.com/muhvbhfy
My own decade of inner work: meditation, therapy, writing, boundaries, sovereignty
What I’m Doing to Prepare
• Noticing where I still abandon myself
• Strengthening boundaries
• Simplifying my life
• Staying honest
• Writing my story
• Building emotional and spiritual stamina
• Calling in healthier friendships
What I Want to Learn and Grow Into
• Sovereignty
• Clear communication
• Trusting myself
• Consistent writing
• Expanding without overwhelm
• More ease, less pressure
Preparing for 2026 as a Whole
As we all step into 2026, we can look back at 2025. It was a year of stripping.
We closed pieces of the used car business.
I released parts of myself through ketamine, cacao, and deep self-work.
I let go of a friendship and expanded into two others.
Unexpected changes can be the hardest.
In 2026, we integrate what was stripped.
We choose what we want to create.
We build systems, boundaries, and foundations that support where we’re going.
It asks us to stop clinging to what no longer serves us and stop waiting for “someday.”
It may not be glamorous, but it will be important.
In Closing
This time, Saturn isn’t returning to teach me who I’m not.
It’s returning to remind me who I am. And I am here for all of it!